OMG OMG OMG
I JUST GOT HIRED PERMANENTLY AS A RECEPTIONIST-I'M SO HAPPY! I DON'T CARE IF I GET PAID 7.00/HR I'M JUST SO HAPPY TO BE HERE.
YAI!!
STUPID QUOTE OF THE DAY
you want to be like me, but you'll always be just another imitation
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Where's the exit?
So I’m starting school on Wednesday and I’m pretty excited but also worried about how I’m going to pay for my tuition come November 9th
I know I qualify for financial aid but I can’t get my parents information because they’re so busy, and by the time they fill it out, I’m pretty sure there’s not going to be any financial help for me left. Which leaves me to my own devices- which consist of loans, which I will have to pay back sooner of later.
I have no idea what I’m going to do. I’m so worried and I feel like I’m about to break down in tears because I really want to go to school and I have no money.
And I’ve heard it said that lack of money is not a reason, not to go to school, but the what do I do when my tuition debt comes in the mail and I’m 3,000+ in debt. Not to mention my other debt with Weber State. I haven’t even bought the $200 worth of books I still have left to buy for this semester.
I also have to pay the city of west valley and the city of Murray a combined $300 for various traffic tickets and I don’t even have my license. Speaking of not having my license I still have one observational class and one driving class left before I can even make an appointment to come in and do the driving test at the DMV or with my dad and that’ll be about another $30-$40 which I don’t have.
Speaking of $300 I owe express about that much money. Bringing my debt to just under $9000 at 19 years of age. I’m worth -$9,000.
I just hope that I can hold on tight for this wild ride and make it through on the other side in one piece.
I know I qualify for financial aid but I can’t get my parents information because they’re so busy, and by the time they fill it out, I’m pretty sure there’s not going to be any financial help for me left. Which leaves me to my own devices- which consist of loans, which I will have to pay back sooner of later.
I have no idea what I’m going to do. I’m so worried and I feel like I’m about to break down in tears because I really want to go to school and I have no money.
And I’ve heard it said that lack of money is not a reason, not to go to school, but the what do I do when my tuition debt comes in the mail and I’m 3,000+ in debt. Not to mention my other debt with Weber State. I haven’t even bought the $200 worth of books I still have left to buy for this semester.
I also have to pay the city of west valley and the city of Murray a combined $300 for various traffic tickets and I don’t even have my license. Speaking of not having my license I still have one observational class and one driving class left before I can even make an appointment to come in and do the driving test at the DMV or with my dad and that’ll be about another $30-$40 which I don’t have.
Speaking of $300 I owe express about that much money. Bringing my debt to just under $9000 at 19 years of age. I’m worth -$9,000.
I just hope that I can hold on tight for this wild ride and make it through on the other side in one piece.
Friday, April 24, 2009
it's over - he's gone
After so much effort, and trust I was beginning to reestablish, he betrayed me again. perhaps worse than ever before. I gave him one last chance and he blew it. Blew it in such a way that i was completely unmoved by his tears as he begged me to stay with him.
I've been through this too many times. I'm to young and pretty to be with a guy like this. I left my family, sacrificed my school, and went through so many hardships with him. I thought that he had changed but because I had a guy feeling I always kept a close eye on him. In the end it didn't matter because it was my mom who found the e-mails.
My dad confronted the the two of us. He had no words to defend himself, and I had no desire to do so for him.
I knew he had done it again. Even after he had begged and cried, and made me promise I'd give him another chance. I did, and here we were again.
I took him outside and the first and only thing I had to say was said, "It's over."
Our conversation did not deviate from that theme. I wanted it to sink in that it really was over. completely.
In the end he said he would be leaving. I offered to take his suitcase to the car, and before he could answer I, along with my dad were placing his cloths and a blanket into the backseat of his already cluttered car.
We talked a little more, I explained to him that I had given him a chance and he had chosen to blow it. He said he was going to prove to me that he was a good man. I yawned.
In the end I parted ways without a hug or kiss. Without so much as a glance over my shoulder. Our game lasted a year and two months.
I felt anger more than anything at the fact that my family, and I, had trusted him so completely, and how he betrayed our trust and mocked me, our relationship and just took everything for granted.
Yet when my family and I sat at our dinning room table, later that night, I did not shed any tears. My mother commented on how strong I was being. But the truth is this moment has been months in the making, and I had been, if not emotionally, then at least mentally ready.
Later that night I changed my myspace and facebook profile status to single. I sent a few messages to Jesus, who can't seem to get away from me, he always seems to find a way to find me no matter how hard I try to get away from him. I figured that since now I'm single I should go ahead and see where things go.
I feel like laughing because just the other day Erick was in my office kissing and hugging me and when a few coworkers saw me I felt a little proud that we looked like such a good couple.
24 hours later, I'm single. But it's good that way guys at the office won't hit on me as much because they think I have aboyfriend. I need a break from guys
I've been through this too many times. I'm to young and pretty to be with a guy like this. I left my family, sacrificed my school, and went through so many hardships with him. I thought that he had changed but because I had a guy feeling I always kept a close eye on him. In the end it didn't matter because it was my mom who found the e-mails.
My dad confronted the the two of us. He had no words to defend himself, and I had no desire to do so for him.
I knew he had done it again. Even after he had begged and cried, and made me promise I'd give him another chance. I did, and here we were again.
I took him outside and the first and only thing I had to say was said, "It's over."
Our conversation did not deviate from that theme. I wanted it to sink in that it really was over. completely.
In the end he said he would be leaving. I offered to take his suitcase to the car, and before he could answer I, along with my dad were placing his cloths and a blanket into the backseat of his already cluttered car.
We talked a little more, I explained to him that I had given him a chance and he had chosen to blow it. He said he was going to prove to me that he was a good man. I yawned.
In the end I parted ways without a hug or kiss. Without so much as a glance over my shoulder. Our game lasted a year and two months.
I felt anger more than anything at the fact that my family, and I, had trusted him so completely, and how he betrayed our trust and mocked me, our relationship and just took everything for granted.
Yet when my family and I sat at our dinning room table, later that night, I did not shed any tears. My mother commented on how strong I was being. But the truth is this moment has been months in the making, and I had been, if not emotionally, then at least mentally ready.
Later that night I changed my myspace and facebook profile status to single. I sent a few messages to Jesus, who can't seem to get away from me, he always seems to find a way to find me no matter how hard I try to get away from him. I figured that since now I'm single I should go ahead and see where things go.
I feel like laughing because just the other day Erick was in my office kissing and hugging me and when a few coworkers saw me I felt a little proud that we looked like such a good couple.
24 hours later, I'm single. But it's good that way guys at the office won't hit on me as much because they think I have aboyfriend. I need a break from guys
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